WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME
Friday, May 18, 2007
♥ 6:11 AM
Weihui feels terribly grumpy now.
I just reached home and bathed after training. And, I am super hungry. The only food that I have eaten for the whole day is that small plate of fried kway teow from school along with the egg and fishcake. I'm really hungry. But nobody cooked for me. And i'm too lazy to go buy food. Lol.
Anyway, I feel upset with myelf today.
Having mood swings plus i'm kinda angry with myself for certain things that happened today. My menses is probably coming.
Okay, so my ass hurts like shit.
Had training today at monfort and i've been whining like some spoiled brat. My ass and hamstring hurt like shit and I didn't complete the things that we were supposed to do. And I was being a really stupid bitch and I couldn't stop whining and I was damn close to exploding and throwing a tantrum. Just because I couldn't take the fucking pain that comes from my ass. I mean, everyone was experiencing it too. But I had to be the one who complains and slack. Tsk, I promised to be the one who would back Huang(she's the captain) up but I only end up failing her. She had to give in to me when I said I didn't want to do the sets anymore. Tsk, what the fuck is wrong with me lah. I've like totally let Huang and myself down. Urgh, I suck. Huang, if you're reading this, I'm really really really very sorry.
Anyway, Jazz came to training today.
We partnered and god, it reallly felt damn good. It's like I haven't played this well in MONTHS. Jazz is totally the best partner man. I really do miss her ):
Okay, so let me show you how much a bitch i've been today.
We were walking towards the overhead bridge. And an old woman just pushed and walked ahead without saying excuse me. And being the dumb stupid prat that I am, I went like "Omg. Did she just push me. What the hell is wrong with her." really really loudly. I'm like damn mean okay. Plus, the old woman was a hunchback and everything. The point is that she's really kinda ppor thing. So I'm just damn mean lah.
Today was just damn bad.
My actions were freaking immature.
I mean, imagine me. Whining and being a total sucker.
I can't even stand myself.
I'm just so fucking disgusting now.
Fucktard.
P/S: I'm sorry for this emo post. I'm just pissed with myself.
